Let’s Jump To 2017, Please

I’m an over thinker and I realize this, I accept it, and so do people around me. The day that you, my fellow reader will be celebrating Christmas is in four days and New years is in 10 days. I’m not feeling the joy for either of them.

I don’t know what’s happening with me this year, I don’t know why so much cynicism and almost hate towards the holidays this year. I did not like 2015, I can most honestly say it has been the most sarcastic and uneventful  year of my life and frankly, with the most shocks. In the shortest amount of time I got more shocking and heartbreaking news than in the past 3 years and it’s been constant stress over and over. I think the biggest shock of all was about two months ago, when I heard that my aunt found out she has breast cancer. The first in the family.
That was definitely a big frown upon my family. Luckily everything that was needed to know, was known in time and from that side, everything is okay, which is amazing. She’s going to be okay and she has to be okay. All of the odds are on her side.

But none the less, shocks like this and in a few other forms are enough to break ones spirit. I am spending New Years eve alone, depending on my dad’s work schedule. I want to say that doesn’t bother me because it’s almost my own fault.

I rejected my friend who invited me to celebrate with her, I rejected a few other people that have asked me because I don’t feel like celebrating. I don’t feel like being with people at all. I’m not saying I regret it all that much. If I wanted to have friends around I had more than enough options, but I don’t know. My sadness over being alone doesn’t overflow the uncomfortable, uneasy and dislike feeling of actually accepting and being with people.

I already see the upcoming year and it makes me cry, if that makes any sense to say. I am crying. I just want time to stop and let me be for awhile. I feel way too much pressure. If I honestly could move right now, be with the one man I love who’s far away and  even stay at home all the time I would.

Next year brings even more pressure I truly, honestly don’t want to face, because I’m scared. I don’t want to finish this school year in July, because in September I’ll be a Senior. I’ll be turning 18 in April, which is the legal age of being an adult, I don’t want that. I don’t understand the fascination of growing up, unless you’re in perfect or amazing conditions. There’s more things I can’t mention that scare me by the thought and haunt me at night, so much I end up crying and regretting waking up. That day I wake up, I’m just another day closer to facing it all.

I know that’s a part of growing up and I know it’s supposed to be scary. Everyone goes through it, but damn, that doesn’t make it easier. Sometimes I feel like It’s a bigger problem in my head than what I am projecting to anyone else. Like it’s worse for me in my head than everybody thinks.

I didn’t mean for this post to end so sadly. I was going to end it with a positive message to leave all your negative energy and have a good time at the holidays, because these only happen once a year. But my thoughts drifted I guess.

I hope there’s someone who can tell me what I could do to put my mind at ease, because my hair’s fallin’ out from this stress.

How are you guys spending Christmas and New Years eve? I truly hope with a lot of joy and happiness. Happy Monday to you all!

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List of All Well Known Food Products Across The World I Have Never Tried

I just realized I did a similar blog post two months ago, mentioning a few of the following things but it wasn’t as detailed. It was circling around a few things and what my country Should have. But the following is what I’ve never tried, and what is among those things, I maaaay repaet myself.


Now,you must be thinking. Why would anyone make this into a list? There’s gotta be a million and one things every person on earth hasn’t tried. But some of these will blow your mind, because they’re FREQUENT and almost everywhere, except here. Your mind will take a swirl.

Now, we’re behind Americans by at least fifty years, so in some matters it is understandable. But still not fair. You know. We still want and should have all of the foody goodness some of your guys might get. Of course, not all candy comes from America but I think plenty of these are from there. Or at least, I see Americans eating them the most. Almost all of the candy that is sold here is either from Germany or, I don’t even know but we don’t get variety. At all. We do have some tasty things but those tasty things have been around since my mom was a kid man. Import something dude. Make the stores.

Anyway. back to the topic. As stated, we are behind Americans by at least fifty years, which would explain why we got Oreos for the first time (now) two years ago. I know. This right?

They appeared in late 2013, but this year is still very fresh. And after so much time, we only have the regular kind and the double stuffed kind.

So, I tried making a list of all the things off the top of my head, and mind you there’s a lot, that I hear being talked about all the time and seen being eaten. Let’s dive into it.

  • Taco’s. I think a single store didn’t exist that would make even something similar till about awhile ago, and it’s still not done. They’re in the process of making it, in 2015 – In Serbia.
  • Sushi. Now, this definitely exists, I just thought it was interesting how I never tried it. I think it’s because of the potential gagging that might occur, ’cause I have a very sensitive reflex to flappy, fleshy, jiggly, mushy, wet things.
  • Chinese food. Same situation as sushi. Trying it tomorrow though for the first time. I hear things get real spicy.
  • Waffles. I think you can make them, sure. You can try with a waffle maker of some sorts but here it’s not a thing and no one bother’s buying. And to be honest, it looks like plastic. Doesn’t it?
  • Pancakes. Now I want to try this. Apparently we have this.
    Now let me demonstrate. I am confused.

    These are pancakes all over the world;
       <– & –> what we have here is this  
    Those two are not the same freaking thing. Or they may be. One is just cooked longer and thicker but they can’t be called the same. We call ours Palacinke, and people confuse that with Pancakes. What we have are crapes.
    Open three different tabs. Write Pancakes, write Palacinke, write crapes. That’s all there is too it.
    I want to try PANCAKES.

  • American/foreign cereal. We do not have these. We maybe have some crappy shit like chocolate balls with some cute bear on it, but most of it is just straight up corn flakes. Or those ”protein”, ”fitness” jazz.
    No Lucky Charms, no Raisin Bran, Froot Loops, Cheerios, Reese’s Puffs, Honey Bunches of Oats, Captain Crunch, nothin’.
    I mean I don’t even like or eat cereal, but I wouldn’t mind having it on display, just so I know I can try it. You know.
  • Marshmallows. We have none.
    Again, they’re mushy and I don’t think I’d like them, but just give them to me. I’ll be satisfied with looking at them.
  • Pop tarts. Non existent. What the heck even is that? A biscuit with a flavorful cream on top?

Man, I feel left out.

Now, the fast food restaurants. Well. not much to expect. The biggest fast food restaurant here is McDonald’s obviously. Not that fast food restaurants are even that important, nor do I consume all that much food from them, but it wouldn’t hurt if we also had Wendy’s, Burger King, In & Out and all types of fast food restaurants over the world.

I tried Mango for the first time a few months ago. Never tried avocado due to not seeing it being sold till a few weeks ago.

Now the candy/cookie factory; 

  • Oreos. As mentioned. No other flavors.
  • Butterfinger candy bar. Non existent.
  • Reese’s peanut butter cups. Non existent.
  • Warheads. I love sour stuff. We have sour candies here, but we don’t have warheads.
  • Skittles. We only have the regular kind and there is about, 65 different types of Skittles?
  • M&M’s. Now, okay. We have the chocolate and peanut butter ones. Nothing else.
  • Razzles. They just look fun and they’re candy, but non existent.
  • Nerds. Non existent. But so popular!
  • Fun dip. Non existent.
  • Hershey anything. Non existent.
  • Macarons. I’ve SEEN these in the mall but I believe, 3 macarons is (this is going to sound so pathetic) 3 dollars, converted from the Serbian Dinar. That’s over 300 dinara here and that is INSANE for a few candies. A burger and a 2l coke costs that much. Literally.
  • Crunchie. Okay, I gave up on VIOLET CRUMBLE. But they’re similar right? At least those, goddamn it. Non existent.

And a few drinks;

  • MTN Dew.
  • Dr Pepper.
  • Jolly Rancher.
  • Monster (The energy drink).

I’ve tried SevenUp… It’s Sprite.

So anyway, there you guys go…

I feel like, I’m missing out. It’s not that big of a deal, but it is.
Just the fact that I don’t have it, makes me want to have it even more, even though I would be completely neutral for most of these.

You have at least 8 of these things, so yey me. Ship me some, I’ll pay.