We are lionhearts

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Having the childhood I have had and having dealt with all the things I have ever since I was 5 years old, there’s a few people in my life that are irreplaceable for the spots in my heart as someone who’s stood by me even when I thought of giving up on myself.

My mother and my very best friend Kristina. They both mean the absolute world to me and I don’t say that just because my mom is my mom and I’m ”supposed” to love her and know she is always beside me. Nothing is guaranteed and her support shouldn’t be taken for granted. As something that’s obviously supposed to be there. She didn’t have to be the mother and best friend she is today. She didn’t have to go into such depths with me, to understand me completely and truly see the world from my point of view just so she can give me one advice. She didn’t have to do anything, she did all of it because yeah she loved me, on that front a  mother has no choice, but a mother who is your biggest support and best friend and safest mirror is a gift everyone lucky enough to have should cherish.

My best friend suffered through a lot with me. I don’t mean emotionally, at least I hope she didn’t. I hope I never hurt her enough to make her suffer for anything. I mean she did a lot of things for me no other friend would. She listened to me for hours and hours and hours on end just so I get all of the puzzles from my head and try to sort them out, many times over the same time like no other friend would. She has always had something to say, always been careful with what she says to me to not accidentally hurt me or offend me or make me feel unwanted or abandoned. She always had an answer. I am 100% aware that there must’ve been times when she was desperate and didn’t know what else to say to me because I had drained all of the words out of her and brainwashed her thoughts, but she always kept going.
And so did my mom.

Their approval, opinion and advice means everything to me. I feel weird doing something my best friend or mom don’t approve off. But even then, they’re still so wonderful to tell me that I shouldn’t worry, because even if I am making the wrong choice they’ll stand by me through it and support me when it fails if it does. That gives me strength and confidence.

Many times I often just tell them what I will do or am planning to do, but in any case they stand by me. I always know their opinion, good or bad, especially my mom’s, but sometimes it stirs me the right way, and I am thankful each time.

Many don’t have a shoulder or ear to turn too and maybe receive help when they’re unsure if they’re doing the right thing or not. I am mature enough to realize how happy I actually am, because of them.

I have not been the best daughter, or the best friend I wish I could’ve been to Kristina, but she’s still mine. Funny how love works isn’t it?

At the same time they are my strength, my shield, my armor, my handkerchiefs, my insides, I am theirs as well.
Through every storm, who’s ever it is, we are lion hearts and we walk together through the storm, and I think my mom and Kristina are the only two hands I feel safe holding. I like to believe I am theirs as well.
My mom has told me more than once that sometimes I am the only one she can turn too, as well as my best friend, and I value that. It’s a wonderful feeling knowing that someone feels the same way about me as I do for them, because I know just how much I love them both.

If they tell me it’s okay, if they tell me I’m doing the right thing, I have peace and serenity in my heart, because I know that even if we are all wrong and it’s not the right choice, nothing changes.

I wish this upon every single one of you. I hope you all have that special someone in your life who’s always been there for you.

But not just that. Not just someone who’s always been there for you, I wish you all have that person who you love so much and who you know will always love you, and who will always BE there for you. To be confident that you’re not losing this person anytime soon.

What inspired this post is this particular song:
Lionhearts by Demi Lovato

I listen to this song and imagine a rough and stormy road in front of me and me facing my troubles that come along the way, and the only two people I see walking with me or supporting me from the side is them two.
And as long as I know they’re behind me, I’m marching to the beat of the storm and we walk together into the light.

I try to tell my mom and Kristina as much as I can how much I would be completely lost without them, but I think deep down in their hearts they know. But they deserve to hear it.

If you have anyone in your life you value or love, show them love and never take them for granted. Realize what you have and learn to value whatever good or positive they bring into your life. Every little thing counts and every little thing matters.

If someone’s not there for you for the silliest and littlest things, bet your dollar they won’t show up for the big hardships.

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My Music Library List From A – Z

I’ve thought about doing this for awhile but I always think of it as I’m doing something else or I’m at someone else’s house and I am unable to write. Thankfully, another fellow blogger Books, Tea and a Onesie just wrote it and I got inspired!
Now, let me add a disclaimer here that I don’t usually delete my songs. I think I still have Baby from Justin Bieber on my memory card simply because it was originally put there 3-4 years ago. Yeah, it’s that bad. I’m that lazy. And some may be Serbian. I apologize.

Actually no, I checked but you get my point. Other Justin Bieber songs then. Not saying there’s anything wrong if I do have them in my phone. I ocassionaly like to swing pass his songs. Just to see what he’s coming up with nowadays. I think It might be a little bit embarassing honestly, but what the hell!
Also, since I’ve never truly talked about songs, or music for that matter on this blog, I’m going to let my phone pick for me. I won’t cheat.

Abandon All Ships – Guardian Angel 

Ooh, I love this. This song used to give me butterflies. This is a bit of a song not for everyone, it has a bit of growl in it, so who’s not into that at all… give it a shot still? I love the lyrics!

Backstreet Boys – As long as you love me 

Oh, we have a classic right here. We are all aware of Backstreet boys. The not-so-typical boy band I love. What is there to say? If you’re in love, listen and enjoy life. Applies for singles too, of course!

Can’t forget you – My darkest days 

Heading to sad songs right now. A very nice, meaningful song. If you have a past dear one that won’t get out of your mind and it hurts as hell, this is an okay song to listen too. I haven’t in quite awhile. It’s kind of old.

Darin – You’re out of my life 

I forgot I had this. I can’t believe all of these are lovey, goey, emotion filled. Is this all I listen too.

Eenie Meenie – Justin Bieber ft Sean Kingston 

Miney mo! Oh! There’s Biebs! Also an oldie I haven’t pressed on in quite awhile. I used to love this song, don’t hate.

Falling Up – Falling in love

Oh, I love this song. It’s a love song, with a lot of sound, music and beat, kind off. Found it accidentally on the weird side of YouTube.

Gift of a friend – Demi Lovato 

Okay, I can’t believe I still have this. I think this was for the Tinker Bell movie? Or no, was that Selena? I think it was Selena. I know this was for some movie/thing. It’s a really really nice song about friendship, but damn, I need to refresh this thing.

Hannah Montanta – Nobody’s Perfect 

Oh come on… Classic. From 2009 or something.

Nobody’s perfect, I gotta work it, again and again till I get it right!
Nobody’s perfect, you live and you learn it.
Live by it kids!

Icon for Hire – Hope of morning 

A more serious song that I absolutely love. I related to it a lot. A little self-concious, hopeful song. Found this band by complete accident and fell in love with two songs, ’cause I was too lazy to check out others. This is a no brainer. Awesome.

Joe Jonas – I gotta find you 

Oookay, stop, stop, stop. Get that jaw back up. I used to love the Jonas show, the Jonas Brother’s and this is from the movie Camp Rock that I also love. Plus, it’s a wonderful song. If you love love, love this song.

Katy Perry – Last Friday night 

Why phone? Why not another Katy Perry song first? I have all of them. I mean it’s Katy, it’s obviously great. This is a tad bit crazy song.

Lady Gaga – Paparazzi 

This is going to be deleted after this list. I don’t listen to this artist and well known that I am not a fan. Feels hypocritical to have her sitting there. But I can’t lie, I used to like the song.

Magical Legend of The Leprachauns – Soundtrack from the movie. 

AMAZING. The movie, the soundtrack is so sweet. It just makes your heart and soul dance. Agh!

We can fly away, fly away. No more doubt or fear, nothing left to say. 

Never be the same – Red 

Another amazing song. Absolutely stunning. I love this band in general, one of my favorites. Whoever is a fan of rock, you will love this. Every song has amazing lyrics and music.

One Direction – Little things 

Don’t you judge me. It’s a nice song. I just found it one day you know, just casually, I liked it and downloaded.

Pieces – Sum 41

Very,very sad song. I adore it, but very sad and very relatable. For me excruciatingly.

Que hay detras – RBD (Rebelde) 

This is on here since I was in the 3rd grade, literally. I used to LOVE this band, from the Spanish soap opera called Rebelde, as well. I know all the songs and if you haven’t liked the show, most likely won’t like their music.

RBD – Asi soy yo 

Yep.

S&M – Rihanna 

Mmm, honestly, haven’t listened to this in awhile. It’s a cool, beat song. Fun to dance too. Haven’t checked Rihanna’s work, in…awhile.

Taylor Swift – Crazier 

This is one of her oldest songs ever. And the mushiest/sweetest. Me like.

Urlik Munther – Moments ago 

This is a Swedish singer I know next to nothing about, but I know this song that is quite nice. Very cute.

Westlife – I need you 

Opop! Another lovely boy band and another LOVELY song. Are you getting that 85% of these are lovey dovey?

Your Guardian Angel – Red Jumpsuit Apparatus 

One of my favorite songs I always go back too. It’s so beautiful. If you have someone you care for, and you want to promise you’ll always be there, just, ugh. Lovely song.

Željko Joksimović – Ljubavi 

Serbian singer, but the most beautiful song of his.

I feel like you either knew them, or you knew them. I don’t change up my lists that much. But there’s 435 more songs. More to come!

My Guilty Pleasure Artists

I don’t like necesarrily talking about this kind of things so publicly because it feels hypocritical. I don’t like mainstream things but you know when something is either really good, or really catchy and it just stays on it’s own? And then you have that urge in the back of your head to just want more and more and that’s how you start liking the song. Well I have one of those songs right now… A few actually. I guess you could call them Guilty Pleasure Artists.

I used to LOVE all of the following artists, but years back, when they just started out their careers on Disney channel, be it singing carreers or acting:
– Demi Lovato 
– Selena Gomez 
In rare occasions: Miley Cyrus 
– Taylor Swift. 

Basically that gang that’s been on and off for years.
I loved Hannah Montana but I’m one of those people that does not like Miley’s way of expressing her youth ending and her growing up. Growing up also means maturing and she doesn’t appeal that to me. But I do understand she’s going through a LOT of stuff and in no way am I a hater, please don’t think that if you like Miley. I rarely listen to her older songs even though I know all of them.

Oh oh! Isn’t it annoying when you’re in a group of people or just in school and you hear, someone else is playing a mainstream song like Anaconda by Nicki Minaj and you’ve only heard the song once, but a line or two got stuck in your head, which can easily happen. Like; My anaconda don’t, my anaconda don’t, my anaconda don’t want none unless you got buns hun. 

That’s one sentence and it’s bound to stick ’cause it’s soo catchy. (I hate the song though). Isn’t it annoying how you can just lip sing a part of a song, you don’t have to like it but just a shame to not go along with it, and someone attacks you & says, ”Oh my god, you listen to that?! How can you?!”. And then you have to explain for 20 minutes that you know it ’cause it’s flipping EVERYWHERE.
It’s really annoying to me because our society is known by patterns and people love to put you in stereotypical groups. If you like Nicki, you’re a hipster. If you like Taylor, Demi, Selena, Ariana Grande, you’re a pop junkie and I don’t even know. There are people who are proud of those titles and that’s great if you do, less stress for you. But personally, I don’t care what I’m called as long as you have a damn good justification as too why you are naming me something. Be well informed and I’m all good. I’m not going to argue with the truth.
Otherwise, it irks me.

Ahem, where was I…
But I do like a couple of Miley’s ‘newer’ songs {By newer I mean ever since she changed her style, I was late with all of them.} like, Wrecking Ball.

Demi, well, I have always liked her. She’s kind off inspirational to me sometimes even though, once again, their newer looks and attitudes turn me off. They’re not there to please only me, I do know that. It may just be that I’m used to their 15 year old innocent faces and their way of growing up is a lot different than mine.
She’s one of those artists that didn’t go to crime, drugs and alcohol and I respect that.

There’s nothing particularly wrong with her in my head, but I guess I’M not attracted that much.
Again, I rarely go back to her older songs, like Give Your Heart A Break, I think that’s the only one. But, her newer songs, I didn’t want to like them when I first heard them. They grew on me though. Like, Heart Attack, Really Don’t Care. Does Let it go count? I really did like that one.
Really Don’t Care is on my everyday list, at least once and that’s definitely a guilty pleasure.

Selena, ah. I don’t follow the names of her albums, but what was the album where songs like Birthday were on? That album I did not like. The Album that contained mostly party and chill out songs, that all gave the impression off You Only Live Once kind of thing. Ew, get out of here. I do not like that sentence.

Yeah we all live once so let’s fu*k that one life as fast as we can. Let’s drink, party, try out mild drugs, not like it’s gonna do anything, they’re mild right? Let’s jump off a fence of a forbiden department and let the cops find us. ”Fu*k the police!”.

(Probably most) Teenagers don’t have restrainct to only try something ONCE. If you can’t have that self-concious, I don’t think you should do it at all.

I’m just gonna repeat myself on the fact that I rarely go back to their old songs, but from Selena, there is one song I don’t know why I like, but I like it.

When I first heard it, I did not like it. All I heard is two verses and the line ”Love will remember” being repeat over 18 times. I decided not to be ignorant and listen to it again and it broke me for a split second. I still don’t hear much emotion in her voice or depth in the actual song, but I love it at the same time. There’s something about the lyrics…

”We used to be inseperable. 
I used to think that I was irreplacable. 
We lit the whole word up, before we blew it up. 
I still don’t know just how we screwed it up. 
Forever, forever, forever…”.

I’m starting to realize something.
It may just be that I’m awfully bitter these past ”few” months and that not one love song hits me as much. You know how when you’re in love, every love song makes you go through the roof and every word makes sense? I guess I need to fall in love hehe.

Oooh Taylor, you and your boyfriends and ex’s and complicated relations and friendships. Yet you’re here, still writing about your boyfriend’s, ex’s, complicated relations and friendships.
I have no idea if she has a new song or not. I don’t follow this girl at all. All I can say, is I like her old songs and she is definitely a big guilty pleasure.
I THINK know almost all of her songs and I can’t not sing to them but even though, deep down, I dislike them. I really love Ours. That’s the only song that gives me feels. Makes me feel like I’m the one singing to someone I love.

Don’t your worry your pretty little mind.
People throw rocks at things that shine
and life makes love look hard. ❤ 

I must be really bitter though. She has so much love and break up songs. I sometimes feel like I’ve blocked my emotions from evolving. Right now It’s good. I’m too tired.
And I actually lost track as to why I was writing this… I only wanted to mention Selena Gomez and Love will remember but that ecalated quickly. If you came down to this line, I congratulate you. One of my pointless blogposts.

Question of the day: Do you have some guilty pleasure artists? Who are they? If not, good for you!